Im feeling low self esteem at the moment.

another nice thing about this blog...i can blab how much i hate everyone and how much life sucks without annoying shyroom.

I think lately my social awkardness has been manifesting itself into anger. I'm angry at myself and other people for not behaving in the way i would prefer.

i think the big thing on my mind it talking to my professors. i am extremely intimidated by them. and i should talk to them. two weeks from tommorow, the math club is hosting a faculty/student vollyball competition (im president of the math club for some really strange reason) and im really afraid that noone is going to show up. so i need to go around to all the professors and faculty and personally invite them. i am soooooo freaked out.

i dunno. i guess im partially afraid to talk to them becasue im afriad in some weird way they are going to remind me how inferior i am....how i am inferior to them and my peers. how much i suck. or im afriad they will ask me some question that will exemplify my inferiority.

my stomach is churning. i am natious. i am annoyed.

im kind of annoyed at qigong too and he didnt even do anything. so im annoyed at myself for being annoyed with him.